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No longer a Student, Not yet an Employee (???)

HI

So, I am having A LOT of difficulties to focus on finishing my FYP project.

I’m in a state of INERTIA. As my title says, I’m no longer a student but I’m not yet an employee, with ??? – ย question marks. Let me explain. So my classes have officially ended last Wednesday but my final presentation is on this Friday (some of my classmates have their slot on Thursday) and our documents can be submitted the following Thursday.

BUT unfortunately this entire journey feels exceedingly drawn out that’s why I feel like I have not more stamina and I sincerely just want to finish up but somehow there’s this inertia that’s getting to me and I have been trying to fight it continuously since… like for the whole of April. T^T

On a slightly different note, being in this stage of my life feels awkward. VERY awkward. People are CONSTANTLY asking me, so are you done with school/have you graduated/are you working – depending on how young/old they perceive me to be. Unfortunately, the impression I let on is a lot older than I really am. I’m only 22 going on 23 but it seems like people think I have been working for.. a while. Sadly. Though arguable that’s true because I did work / intern during my hols and before my degree started. Heh.

AND I feel that I need to document this awkward stage of my life down. It’s not like I’m going to experience many times of graduating from university and worrying (but not really) where I’m headed to after.

I think being in this state of flux… the between, unsettles me. Not knowing how to move forwardย wanting to move forward perhaps out of a subconscious fear of losing the past. I hold dear to my life in school, I do, I don’t deny it. I love it. I feel protected, challenged but sheltered. It’s not that I feel I’m not ready to begin work. But work life is tiring, I know it, I’ve been through it and I think being thrown out of a student’s life and into work life, it’s daunting, its sad. This stage of my life can be summed up in one word – bittersweet. Sick-sweet, like dried up roses in the window pane.

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Sorry guys, this isn’t me and I stole this off tumblr, I think.

I have gone for job interviews, but I have no confirmed offers. I’m genuinely not worried because I think at worseย  optimistically thinking, I can be a full time home tutor that earns a lot money and besides I like teaching! HAHA. Ok, I’m half joking and digressing. The truth is, I just rest assure that God has it all worked out and my fretting ain’t gonna do any good to me. ^^v

OH yes and the ??? in the title is also regards to I don’t know yet if I am going to be an employee or enjoy being called that. I don’t want to be an employee. I don’t like that term. Contributor yes maybe. HAHA. Anyhoos. Moving on…

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Easier said than done. BUT DO IT ANYWAYS! (image cr: RemedyQuarterly)

OK so I’m just gonna crawl back to finishing up my work. AND I promise myself (kekeke) I will upload work I’ve done in the 3 years of my life in LASALLE, from business reports to trendboards and project proposals, AFTER I’ve graduated, which is SOON!

THAT plus photos from HK and JPN.

AND I am heading to UK, London this Sunday, how exciting is that? Anyone from UK reading this? Please contact me for a meet up! ๐Ÿ˜‰

After UK, I’ll make it back for my own graduation show preparations before leaving to Philippines for my THIRD mission trip there! CAN’T WAIT.

xx
Ena

p.s. addicted to this song atm:

Fab Feb

The week after CNY, my cell group and I head to Sentosa for an outing! Organized by Xue, we headed for Luge and Skyride. It was Russ’s last outing with us before he flew to Aussie for school.

Us before the Luge rides in our helmets and during the Skyrides! (:

Random pics with the girls at school!

With B for tea at ION during class breaks… Capturing her in her poses!

With the girls in the meeting room, where B and I booked tickets for our trip to Korea NEXT WEEK!!! ๐Ÿ˜€

With the girls on V’s jeep. Paiseh I know the yellow cartoon background v unbefitting of the cool car and girls but.. cute what right!

With the lovely V. I cheat, our faces are post-processed on my phone and thus we look fair like fairies. HAHA. Next time I share my secret to good skin and pretty pictures ok?!

More selcas with V, on the ride back to school from lunch!

Undeniably school has been major fun with the girls. <3

This week has been fantastic, God’s grace been so abundant. Firstly B and I managed to book tickets to Korea despite the rule that we were supposed to book 21 days in advance. Secondly after 1 long and stressful week I finally manage to confirm model and timing for Trans. Lab shoot. It’s been majorly postponed as somethings are not within my control. The stress’s not over yet but I’ll do what I need/can and trust God for the growth and blessings.

Today’s the only weekday I got back home before the sun’s out and it felt surreal. I appreciate my busy schedule, it’s a blessing to be able to have a fulfilling life. It felt real good to crash on my bed for a 3 hour nap after the long week.

Had the pleasure to assist Lucinda in her solo exhibition on Wednesday, will post some pictures soon! Next week will be major fun. Loads to work to clear before I head for the hols!!! But oh what fun! ๐Ÿ˜€

xx

Studded shoes!

I went shopping today! I meant to head down to City Plaza (Near Paya Lebar Mrt Station) to check out the store, Skim. City Plaza has a lot of wholesale/retails stores so you can get clothes at quite a bargain if you buy a few pieces at a go, ideal when shopping with friends! So the store Skim is one such store and I like their designs that I saw on their website. But when I went down to see the pieces, I didn’t buy anything from the store but I ended up with several other stuff from other stores!

Among which are two shoes, like this studded pair…

And this flat with skull decor! ๐Ÿ™‚I promised myself that I won’t buy cheap shoes, especially after purchasing Rubi’s 2 for $30 (or something like that) but I couldn’t resist buying these… They were only $12.90 each, I reckoned I should get them cause my heart won’t break even if they do. Lol!

I also got pretty vest, tops and skirts. New clothes for school, yay! It’s nice that I’m a fashion student so I can wear fancy clothes to school when I like it. It can be a pressure to dress up sometimes but we mostly dress simply, albeit with style. ๐Ÿ™‚ We don’t wreck our heads as to what we’d wear to school each day (although Bini does sometimes, lol) and when we’re running late, anything goes! ย I think I will try to take more pictures of what my friends and I dress to school when school starts! I dare say that Lasalle students are the coolest and most stylishly dressed bunch in Singapore. ๐Ÿ˜‰

School timetable’s not out yet and I was just talking to Azalea, a classmate about it on FB. We are getting quite psyched about school starting and happy that our “orientation” is on Monday morning and not held this week, which is the case for other level 2 fashion comm/design students. Woohoo!

Enjoying my week thus far, hope you are too!

Xx

 

Adventures with Bien

Hi my dear friends~ Let me introduce you to Bien~ She’s a toy my dear friend Bini gave to me so I named her Bien after Bini and me (En for Jia En)!

She will travel to places with me and I will occasionally update the pretty sights we see (and when she asks to be featured in the photo)! Hope you will enjoy Adventures with Bien! ^^

Bien resting while Bini & I lunch at Aroma foodcourt~

 

Bien likes this Art Panel that says DON'T PANIC
Bien & The Harmless Monster

The exhibition Bien and I visited is a Fine Art Exhibition “Works In Progress” featuring works by Lasalle’s Level 2 Fine Art students at Lasalle Praxis, running till 12 Feb 2011! If you can’t make it, check out more pictures by James Bent on his blog here: http://voyage.lamodeoutre.com/praxis-space-fine-arts-l2-work-in-progress-exhibition/

Black is becoming Boring

Hi! I don’t usually post about fashion related topics on my blog, ironically since I am studying fashion. Talking about studying fashion, I find it rather contrived when people use the word “reading” fashion/law/whatever course instead of using “studying”. Just saying. So going back to the point, I was checking the blog contest comments sections to check out the recent posts and I was quite disappointed to see a new post that is vying for the Balenciaga bag. Haha. However I am glad to have read the post on monoxious.com because it’s a fashion-centred blog managed by two pretty girls who have an obsession with black.

Let the pictures do the talking. ๐Ÿ˜‰

Dawn, the younger of the duo. She’s like a pretty Japanese doll!

Arissa. Channels a more edgy vibe.

Dawn in an enviable black dress and obi belt.

Arissa in a stylish ensemble.

Oddly enough it’s the first time I chanced upon them although they’ve been writing since 2009. I think it is probably because they seldom attend local fashion events. Or maybe I am not as up-to-date with the local fashion blogging scene. Maybe both.

I enjoy reading their blog and I like seeing their outfit posts, their choice of clothing, bags, shoes and accessorizes. Even the choice of brands or place of purchase are relatable, like m)phosis, far east plaza, bugis street. They feature Ann Demeulemeester (had to google for the surname) knock-off shoe, mulberry knock-off bag and Alexander McQueen knock-off bag. Maybe knock-off isn’t the right word. Although it’s what they use on their blog, I like to think “inspired” is a better word. I adore the photos they took with lovely graffiti/city skyline/flower fields/forest-y/pyramid/busy street backgrounds. It’s a very cosmopolitan, global village feel.

They even featured quite a fair bit on black edgy fashion items like chain necklace, leather pants and the like which I personally adore and if given the budget, I would probably by now own a rock-star worthy wardrobe. That’s why my bio on twitter reads closet punk rockstar. Hurhur. ๐Ÿ˜›

But somehow seeing them in my personal fashion style – edgy, rocker/biker chic – I feel a sense of loss. I don’t know how to put it across or explain it. Maybe I am just tired of wearing black all the time. Maybe I have outgrown metal/rocker/biker chic style. Maybe I have a growing fondness for spring colours and motifs. A growing fondness for nude/neutral palette.

So I guess the whole point of today’s post is an increasing realization of how the black rocker chic style cool factor is waning for me. In fact black now channels a pretty everyman worker feel to me. No offense but black is a professional office executive colour.

I only started to be more selective with what I wear when I was 18 going 19. My FM4A classmates actually commented that they notice a rocker-chic girl image from how I dress and I was very surprised and pleased to hear that. Although I really think it’s more like muted/stripped down/simpler rocker chic style. HAHA.

So now I am left wondering and redefining what is my preferred fashion style. As of now I think it’s simple/modern/classic and I have an increasing desire to include more nude, neutral, pastel colours into my wardrobe, one piece at a time.

Ah… the love, the life, the woes of a fashion student.

Sometimes I think being in fashion is a contradiction for a christian. In an industry where looks, appearances are everything and where people are seen as superficial. God tells us beauty is not seen on golden braids but in the heart (my paraphrase, will dig up the verse another time) and that man looks at the appearance but God looks at the heart. Many times I think fashion is a very self-centred concept and an industry that breeds selfishness where people care more for the next fad and the next IT bag. What about God’s love for the poor, the needy, the widowed? They are almost completely over-shadowed, forgotten in this glitzy glamour world of fashion.

But the fact is that I know for sure Fashion is the industry that I want devote myself to work in this world. I love it and I enjoy it. Many times I feel that it is superficial and I am conflicted within. Can any christian tell me how not to be, in face of seeing provocative, sexy, sensual nude images flashing in fashion magazines, in lecture and better yet as a key image for a semester long project? The subject of nude images are mostly female so perhaps the temptation is lesser but nonetheless we/I am going to be increasingly desensitized by sex and whatever it sells. Can that be acceptable? The answer is no. What am I to do about it is the question that follows. One that I am still discovering.

I guess God’s purpose for me in the world of fashion is something I am still discovering and while I unravel the mystery I am continually reminding myself to keep my eyes on the cross. Okay I totally didn’t mean to end this post as a holy-moly one but I did. ^^V

Good Day ^^

Had an eventful and fun day! ย Ok by now it’s yesterday, but ohh whatever~ ๐Ÿ˜›

Thank God, got into the specialism of my choice, Fashion Management. Was discussing with Beatrice, my classmate that seems like most people get into their choice of course, with interview or not. The great news for us management students is that we didn’t need interview unlike all the other course – design, textile & comm! ^^ Woohoooooo I sorta didn’t want an interview cause it’s you know, so unnecessary… hehehe… Anyway can you tell I’m in a good mood and I’m more verbose so let me go on. Circe (our fashion course head, who also lectures/heads fashion management) was saying how this year’s FM students makes the “dream team”, with impressive grades to boot… woohoo… I’m praying we’ll all make an awesomest class of students!!! *claps hand close eyes bows head

thennn in cheeryyy mood I bought my new wallet and new diary for new year 2011 (yes v early but I have 20% member’s discount from kikki. k. :D) this is so lame but girls get v excited over things they buy, ok.

and met up with friends for dinnerrr movieeee and sushii during movie omgosh love. anyways im now on a lookout for people to hang with while im free but most if not all my lovely girlies are mad busy studying… yingling.. ming.. my sis… it’s not funny… so i hang with martin.. ian.. joshua.. dafril… mostly the boys that ORD! hahaha congrats man guys so happy for you all new found freedom. I am rambling ok. I think they don’t even read my blog. haha. ok byes!

Crazy Ride

So I said I will update about the 4 months in Lasalle fashion foundation.

I am so tempted to tell all the stories that concerns this one bad person. But I will not. It’s way to bitchy for me to do that, and I don’t want to stoop to that level. I want to move on. Far far away from that person and forever more. Don’t ever want to be involved in that person’s life. Thank God I am not going to fashion design.

In this 4 months, I’ve made friends and found out that friends lie and betray me because of some misunderstandings they don’t resolve with me, despite all the times I’ve helped them with their schoolwork. In fact one misunderstanding occurred because I helped.

I found out that friend will hurt friends to further their own agendas and more despicably, use other to ruin others. And one willingly does so, while ostracizing people who kindly discourage them to do so. *Amazed* That one person is in absolute denial…

But I thank God, through it all, I may have been burned, but not killed. And I have found REAL friends that will tell me the damn truth instead of lying to me. And friends who CARE for me and will HELP me. ๐Ÿ˜€ ๐Ÿ˜€ ๐Ÿ˜€

God will be my avenger although I am obviously not gonna seek revenge or wish ill upon evil people. But the way they choose to lead their lives, they will do so to their ruin. Or more mean and evil people will ruin them, not kidding.

I HAVE become stronger and wiser. I am definitely much more freaking aware of what things are happening and definitely not going to be busybody and be involved in any drama whatsoever againnnnn. YAY!!!

Of course, through this all, I know people are not perfect, we are flawed and we make mistakes BUT innocent mistakes are NOT THE SAME with schemes. Or manipulation or intentional sowing of discord and ruining people’s life. Eyes can tell and humans can discern. Such people should be cautioned, you’ll be burned.

I am definitely amazed and amused that some people live such sad lives of toying with other people’ lives, who gain such thrill out dirty ploys. They should… get a life. And my parents are wise, they tell me to do nothing with such people with them except to pray for them.

Drama aside, everyone else in my class have been nothing short of lovely. ๐Ÿ˜‰ I am happy and proud to be a class rep of such an outstanding class!

Lastly, the truth will be revealed… I have no need to explain myself. Those who need lies to cover themselves or choose to avoid people will need to do so their whole lives.

Last Leg

It’s the last leg of race to the finish!

Last presentation for Fashion Management tmr! I pray everything will go smoothly.

When it’s over, I will find time to sit down and review my life in Lasalle for the past 4 months in Fashion foundation. It’s been a wild ride, one beyond my imagination and what I thought I signed up for. I’ve been warned, but I never knew so many things would happen. And how unprepared I was.

So there, a little teaser for the next post.

Meanwhile I will be away doing my ppt slides!

Ciao!

Btw I sooooo want to go for a holiday…. somewhere with a beach… or a lot of malls… to play and shop.

I want to shop for new stuff. Hahaha.

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Anyhoo, stayed overnight in school to complete textile printing. It was fun with the mates! Think we’ll be doing this a lot in the next few days.

I am totally paying back all the sleep-full nights I had for last month’s weekend. I will need to forgo sleep for the next 1 week. Haha. Well, too many things happening in the last 1-2 months and it has resulting in this, no point crying for spilt milk, just move on, just do it! ๐Ÿ™‚

Had the worst nightmare ever about Sophie, Serene and Caleb, thank God it’s not for real. I always dream about Serene, seriously! Haha.

A Short Break

In the midst of working on my Management Report, yes, 5am in the morning. Haha. Taking a short break now, with a cup of milo, one of my favourite comfort drink! ^^

I just wanted to come and post that I am so thankful for Sharinces, YangFei and Desmond in my class. I have not ย been feeling well since last weekend and I feel the care and concern from them especially! ^^ I really enjoyed dinner with them.

I have not posted this before, but one of the things that have been affecting me is how scary the world, some people in this world can be. I know humans are flawed, nobody’s perfect but being brought up in a sheltered, christian community has really really shielded me from the harsh reality of life so much so that when the truth surfaces, I am shattered. I am currently recovering from the shock of this revelation. I realize how really naive and innocent I am, I really do see the world in rose-tinted glass. Maybe I don’t anymore, maybe I will. But a truth that I am reminding myself, continually, is that no matter how flawed humans are, God remains the same, He never changes!