Hello guys & girls! I’m officially legal! Not that there’s anything I’m dead eager to do with my officially legal age… To me, being 21 is just another number! In fact I think being 20 is a bigger milestone for me, or rather was a bigger milestone because at 20, I was no longer a “teen” ! LOL. Ok, now I’m an adult! And I’m not exactly looking forward to it cause it entails tons of responsibilities! *Shudders*

It’s actually really late now, so here’s just a preview of the photos from my pre-birthday party on Friday! I’ll upload the rest with captions another time soon! I think I’ll also be uploading photos of my Batam trip with friends although the photos aren’t glam but it was a pretty fun trip with the great and fun company! 🙂

Here’s me with the cake my friends bought/surprised me with at TCC! 🙂

With the awesome bunch of girls! We go way back from secondary school! How time flies!!!With the boys all looking cool in black & white! m/
And me posing with a hand drawing Yiting drew for me! 😉 Btw I was wearing a bandana that was the party favour! Cool huh! 😀

I really enjoyed the dinner at TCC cause the food was good. 🙂 However I was pretty disappointed with the Ying & Yang bar because there was a miscommunication with my reservation. I reserved for 20 but ended up with 6?! >: ( Thankfully they managed to resolved it but it was unfortunate that we went after a rain so it was pretty hot and humid at the alfresco rooftop bar. Thankfully I asked the girls to retire to the room first cause the rain came pouring down while I was settling the bill and while the boys waited with me… Settling the bill was… another nightmare cause it was super crowded, plus confusion from the rain and I didn’t transfer enough cash into my current account (from my savings account, gasp!) so I had to ask a friend to foot half of it first, lol! All in all I don’t think the bar was a good idea although the drinks (and arguably, service) were pretty good. But the crowd was mainly caucasians and the music was mehhh.

The Club Hotel was pretty good though! My friends were pretty impressed with the place, especially with the decor and the white carpet (a lot more so than I was, haha) so it’s a place I’d go back, for a cosy night with fewer people/head count. 🙂

All in all I think the party was a success, I enjoyed the parts of spontaneity, like the surprise cake for me at TCC but unfortunately my friends and I were mostly tired/exhausted from work/internship/army/uni-camps that we just didn’t have the stamina nor mood to last through the night. That made me pretty disappointed and I kicked a small fuss (pseudo mad, saying “like that la, leave early when I booked you 3 weeks in advance” talk) with the boys who had to leave early. (Even though after they left, all we did was just sleep cause really we were too tired, HAHA)

On the whole I’d say I enjoyed the experience and I think it’s a success if my friend enjoyed themselves. Hopefully they weren’t just placating me when they say they did. But truthfully I felt pretty down after the party, partly because of PMS (aka pre-menstrual syndromes) which made me emo (plus bloated which sucked max cause I looked fatter in my birthday photos, sigh). And the whole prep of this birthday party and post party made me sad cause I’d rather not celebrate my birthday because I think the whole point of birthdays is for others to celebrate/kick a big fuss over you. But I guess this time round, I decided to do it mostly for my friends(part get-to-gether, part dressing up in fun) and I think I’d consider it worth while. But I guess it’s fair to say that while I did enjoy myself, and I don’t regret organizing it, I’d still rather if someone else did the whole hoo-ha for me instead.

And I think the thing that made me most upset was this time around, people that I was really close to and mattered a lot to me, just wasn’t around. Maybe it’d be fairer to say that people who are supposedly closer to me, disappointed me. I don’t think it’s unfair for me to expect of certain things. But also with time, I’ve come to accept not to have much expectations so I won’t be disappointed. Honestly, I don’t care much about my birthday, especially this year. I did this 21st birthday really for the heck of it. Ever since I was 19, I don’t really care about my birthday.

Side tracking, this year felt pretty weird, cause I celebrated it on 15 July and 17 July itself I didn’t treat or felt as if it was my birthday, lol. I met up with a group of friends and only 2 out of 6 know it’s my birthday and they didn’t celebrate for/with me. I’d be disappointed 2 years back, but now It’s not that I don’t care, but I accept that certain people/friends are like that.

Ok, the thing is birthday happens to be a good indication of who you’re closer to, who bothers to celebrate with you/facebook/sms you. And although I fully agree that friendship isn’t based on what he/she does on your birthday, it happens to be a pretty good indication for me, between my best friends. And I guess, in this case(s), disappointment isn’t the word. But that the prognosis is simply that we are no longer as close as we use to be and its a little saddening. And the realisation hits me that I’m just not close to any people in particular anymore. Increasingly I keep all my private and not so private thoughts to myself, my blog and my twitter, and that’s sad. Although looking on the bright side, I have also made new friends via my blog and twitter, haha.

So moving on, life’s like that. We move on, we meet new friends. We keep in contact with old friends, we deepen or we could burn old ties. It all depends, but all I can say is that it takes two to clap and though I admit I can be pretty cold and aloof, many times it also happens to the the people I meet, the friends I make that made me this way. Oof!

I sure am not as optimistic as I was before, but it isn’t to say that I’d remain this way. I’ve had a negative outlook for a long time and I’d like a positive change right about now. I’ve shared a lot more than I intended and it’s time for me to go sleep!

Let another week of work begin and then 1 week of real holiday then school! Ah! I just can’t believe time flies so quickly!