HAPPY 2011!

Art Meet Up Rach, Jon, Martin, Yu Ting, Steff, Guang, Guo and Ian! Too bad Ms Chan and Ernica couldn’t make it! The next time we meet we should plan like a BBQ or a movie cum picnic something. Sorry ah my plan very chill onex. Just coffee/tea/talk at TCC and some doodling gift letter. HAHA. It was good meeting up! We’ve definitely changed, like I’m less hyper, Guo talks more, Jon is more holy while Ian became more wild… One thing I’m sure of from this meet up is that we sure are as comfortable as old souls when we meet. It was just good to chillax talking about videos, showing/seeing work, talking about our works – or lack there of, talking about entertainment and inspiration, about friends, family, neighbours and the list goes on. It was good. Hope to catch up more on their lives and I actually really hope we can get together and work on something in the near future. For now, we will all help Steffi and ourselves with her upcoming VoxArt project! 🙂

These are some “chicken little” new DIY new year cards I handmade and gave some of my dearest girlfriends in church! 😀 My sister Lu Jia says they are “obiang” breaking my heart… Dione says it’s true, adding on “You want an honest friend!” HAHAHA. Yes my dear…

My new year week has been spent on packing my room. I think this round has taking the longest record, about a week and I’m still not absolutely done. Due to lack of inspiration of how to organize my room/stuff. 🙁

But I had a super week! Catching up with old friends on facebook! My pri and sec school friends alike. On wed, I had lunch with Dione at Bedok Point Bishamon’s Ramen shop. Their Salmon Ramen Salad has the sesame flavour reminiscent of the squid dish served on a cold plate at the start of Chinese wedding banquet. We enjoyed it. And then just shopping chilling all the way to Tampines. I will really miss Dione when she leaves!!! 🙁 I spent Christmas day, New Years Eve and New year week with her! 😀 BFF. Hahaha.

Xue Li came over today and we started on a new bible study material , Thessalonians! Yay! (although I must note we left Genesis bible study half way we must work to get that back on track someday) It’s a book written by Paul encouraging Christians to remain faithful in trial, a reminder useful for old and new christians a like! And the study material teachings practical biblical steps of how we can! It is very encouraging to see growth in someone whom God has entrusted you to. God is the one who causes the growth, hallelujah! 🙂

A few of my 2011 Goals

  • Read the bible in a year
  • Encourage one friend a month
  • Learn french
  • Practise Guitar
  • Exercise once a week!

xoxo

Bye Bye 2010


Hello! It’s 31 Dec, last day of 2010. And I’m feeling emo. Not because it’s the last day of the year but because of various accumulated reasons… 🙁 Too complex to be discussed in the scope of this blog.

I guess it’s terrible to write emo gloom doom stuff on my blog and negatively influence you all… but I do feel this way. I think its a lot harder to stop/quit feeling this way that I thought… :'(

So… hope you all have a wonderful end to 2010! 🙂

When Love Came Down

This was meant to be blogged last night/early morning but something cropped up with WordPress so I decided to type on Word and am only posting it now. 🙂

Here are some over-due photos from YPM Camp, YA Gathering & Outreach Prep !

With Evan, Felily & Joyce!

With Brian Tan my 13 year old camp angel.

With YA1!

A group of church boys sewing Christmas outreach gifts is really quite a sight!

God has been faithful and Christmas outreach went well, we believe many have been blessed by it. Heard a few wonderful testimonies of how newcomers have been touched and even how a friend felt so touched she wanted too accept Christ again. Aww! 🙂 There are many areas we can improve upon, publicity and follow-up so hopefully come next year, Christmas outreach will be better and bless even more people!

I thank God for everyone who came and helped out for Daniel & Benjamin Christmas gathering. Especially to Siew Ho, Amy, Yee Ning, Russ and Jon. It was a good time of hanging around and sharing thanksgiving for the year. 🙂

I had a wonderful Christmas evening with Dione, watching 500 Days of Summer, chilling (literally in the cold) all the way back home. Hahaha. And the next day, spent a whole day with her, church, after church shopping first at the new Bedok Point then Orchard. It was so good and fruitful to share and also listen to her share. It was also a fruitful shopping day for me. Hehe. 🙂

The most important lesson I’ve learnt this year is that I cannot take my eyes away from Christ, especially when troubles come and don’t go, when my patience and love is gone. That’s when I need to focus on Him even more. The spiritual discipline I’ve once cultivated (actually not too long ago) is now gone and I need to get it back. My new year resolution is to hunger and thirst for God’s word and be disciplined in my spiritual life.

This passage of the bible spoke to me today:

1 Peter 1:3-9 (New International Version, ©2010)

Praise to God for a Living Hope

3 Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! In his great mercy he has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, 4 and into an inheritance that can never perish, spoil or fade. This inheritance is kept in heaven for you, 5 who through faith are shielded by God’s power until the coming of the salvation that is ready to be revealed in the last time. 6 In all this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. 7 These have come so that the proven genuineness of your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed. 8 Though you have not seen him, you love him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy, 9 for you are receiving the end result of your faith, the salvation of your souls.

Looking back, I feel a tinge of horrible-ness for my actions/in-actions. But there is little regret and I thank God for showing me that I am going through a period of refinement. Even now, I find myself very critical and almost always catching myself to not think critically and judgmentally of others. I need strength and love from God to find that balance of love and truth! So very hard indeed!

11 No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it. – Hebrews 12:11

I am still at lost with many things and I shall desire to seek God for wisdom to know what to do, for help that He will send me down on earth.

To end off, Thank God for keeping my family safe and healthy and for loving and caring friends!!! 😀

Filled with the Joy of the Lord :)

Lion of Judah was a refreshing camp for me. It was my first time being a game-master and being in a group with older campers, mostly ypm leaders. It felt like I was watching the other younger campers going through the camp rather than actually being a camper.

It was a good camp for me, a time where I was refreshed with the word of the Lord through very engaging sermons by Pastor James who spoke and exhorted on the Lion of Judah, Jesus Christ our King.

I was reminded of my first love for Jesus when I saw the younger ones dedicate their lives to God and I also rededicated my life to God and recommitted to be faithful and disciplined for His glory. God also reminded me that He has called me to serve in YPM, to serve and be an example for the younger ones.

12 Don’t let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith and in purity. 13 Until I come, devote yourself to the public reading of Scripture, to preaching and to teaching. 14 Do not neglect your gift, which was given you through prophecy when the body of elders laid their hands on you.15 Be diligent in these matters; give yourself wholly to them, so that everyone may see your progress. 16 Watch your life and doctrine closely. Persevere in them, because if you do, you will save both yourself and your hearers.

On the last night of camp Aunty Mei Yoke and I also had the opportunity to hear Ryan, Xue Li and Michael’s camp experiences and prayed for them.

I also got to know Joyce and Ee Ling a lot better through the camp and Yun Hui also heard me share some of the struggles I’ve been facing and prayed for me. I am really very thankful for them and the blessings they pour forth in YPM. 🙂

Camp Comm. this year is a very humble and serving group consisting of  Zhi Rong, Jerome, Becky, Glenn, Yee Ning and Joshua, thank God for their service that has blessed the campers so much!

YA Christmas gathering on Sunday was a very touching, cosy and heartwarming affair. I really thank God for Justin and the core group consisting of Felicia, Cooper, Joyce, Barry and Jovian. (Not sure if I missed out anyone else) I really love the group and everyone in it, their lives and love and care for others and the word of God has been a great source of encouragement to me through this year.

New Beginning Youth Outreach service is busy underway. What’s left are the actual day preparations and making of gifts. Thank God for all who are helping, from the music team, mime cast, lightings, ushers to gift-making team, everyone has been so willing and joyfully serving, giving me great joy to be serving alongside them. I am so thankful for this opportunity to get to know all of them better! Please please keep us in your prayers that we will be kept healthy and in the best form to serve God on Dec 23, this Thursday and that most importantly that the lives of those who come will be touched by God.

On a last note, the camp reminded me of a friend whom I face a certain awkward past with. On hindsight I think I probably over-reacted and was immature in how I handled the friendship and I feel that I have unknowingly hurt the friend more than I know. I have prayed that God will mend and reconcile the friendship and take away the awkwardness because I really do treasure the friend.

Come for New Beginning ! Dec 23, Thursday, 7.15pm! First 200 has very beautiful hand made door gifts! 145 Marine Parade, Chapel on 2nd level! 😀

Vlog Updated

Hahaha it took me so long to reload my vlog… I edited it with imovie on my mac and I was really just playing around so some of the effects don’t make sense, like red curtains in the middle of the vlog. HAHAHA. Although I claim to be introverted but I secretly enjoy seeing myself looking pretty on pictures and videos so don’t hate me or say I’m ugly or anything like that! I’m just kidding… 😛 I did 4 more Christmas cards for my zazzle shop today. I think this week was a little teeny weeny bit more productive than the last, but not very productive still… YPM camp next week! Enjoy the random vlog! Tell me if you like it or not and why and if you’ll watch a 2nd vlog? HAHAHA. Ok bye!

Please wait till the video load before watching! And… I think I want to cut my fringe.

The Elusive Balance

I think this post will be a deep one.. I feel it… So this is a cute picture of me and my toys to belie the cheamness of this post.  HAHAHA as if I need a reason to post a cute picture of myself on my blog… ^^ – more cute emoticons /( ‘ . ‘) i’m quite good at this huh!

So when I was reflecting I initially thought that what I learnt was to be less in control. That all along I’ve been too in control and when things don’t go according to plan I get crushed. But that’s not the case. The case in point (tee hee so lawyerly must be influenced from reading Jie jie’s notes) is that I don’t know how to strike that elusive balance in a christian life. Being in love with God and yet also loving the world. Mission imPOSSIBLE. yeah right. (Sorry can’t help but be sarcastic at this pt in time)

So i’ve been meaning to write a poem on how my coping mechanism’s been. It’s more like reblog, I think I wrote that poem some time back and it’s shelved in the annals in one of my now defunct blogs.  But I will spare you the cheesy poem (alright I know you guys do love my poems right? right? :P) The poem talks about a clam. Need no explanation. HAHAHA. Ya so natural mechanism, people. When hurt, I just clam up and keep things to myself… Avoid people… Don’t let people in so I don’t get hurt, simple!

I’ve been literally crying every week for 2 months (maybe even longer now) and I avoid talking about it so I don’t cry. It’s getting to a point I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired. And sick of being so damn weak. But it’s ironic, I don’t want to be strong.

So yes I’ve kinda drifted away from topic but you’ll see it all links up. The thing is, it’s so difficult to strike that balance. When I think I got it, but I didnt, and since I didn’t, why did I bother? GOSH I know it’s stupid, but I gave up trying. But you know what, God never lets his stupid kids go. Teehee. Thank you God for loving me. ^^

So the song, the song, old song, I heard today. “Heart of Worship” rings true.

I’m coming back to the heart of worship
And it’s all about You
All about You, Jesus
I’m sorry Lord for the thing I’ve made it
When it’s all about You
It’s all about You Jesus

At the end of the day, I need to realise and accept that it’s not going to be about me. Typed some really super cheesy lines but decided to delete them instead, I’m shy. Hahahaha.

So yes. I am still learning. Being 20 is amazing, no longer a teen, not yet an adult. Lost in between. The world of teenage lust and desires being held back (maybe not sometimes) by a growing rationalism. I disapprove of how I’ve been. It was me totally trying (LOL) to be rebellious and kick my shoes in the air and shout “I don’t care, eh eh eh eh eh” to the tune of korean pop girl-band 2NE1’s hit.

I’m still trying to complete Phillip Pullman’s “His Dark Materials”. Yes, he’s an atheist and his work is supposedly anti-christ but I read for leisure like I did with J.K. Rowling’s Harry Potter series and Stephanie Meyer’s Twilight series. Gosh, there’s obviously an appeal with the occult huh? Hahaha. I really do recommend Pullman’s work. It’s really a literary work of art. The worlds, the characters, the words are beautifully crafted. What I love most is in a particular more medieval like world which the heroine, a young girl Lyra comes from, his creation of “daemon” a little spirit animal that follows the people upon birth. Before the child matures to an adult, the daemon constantly evolves and changes, it could be as timid as a mouse, or loyal as a dog or bold as an eagle. But when the child reaches maturity then his daemon no longer changes but is fixed at the child’s most defining character so to speak. So a guardman’s daemon is a dog and a crafty woman’s daemon’s a monkey.

And often while reading I feel so much admiration for Pullman’s keen observation of mankind and due to how much I relate to it. It’s exactly frustrating for me cause right now, I’m experiencing so much changes, if humans had daemon, mine would be distorted, contorted right now. And I know, this is a phase, one day which again, I think will be soon, 1-3 years time, my character and personality will (I hope, fingers crossed) be more stable and I won’t feel so vexed like I am and at lost. And while I am at it, I really really want to make sure I give in my best effort to be the best I can be, before I get stuck into the personality/character for my adulthood.

Hahaha it’s really been a long post huh! Alright time to sleep, ciaos!  😉 Hope you enjoyed the long read. Heehee.

Good Day ^^

Had an eventful and fun day!  Ok by now it’s yesterday, but ohh whatever~ 😛

Thank God, got into the specialism of my choice, Fashion Management. Was discussing with Beatrice, my classmate that seems like most people get into their choice of course, with interview or not. The great news for us management students is that we didn’t need interview unlike all the other course – design, textile & comm! ^^ Woohoooooo I sorta didn’t want an interview cause it’s you know, so unnecessary… hehehe… Anyway can you tell I’m in a good mood and I’m more verbose so let me go on. Circe (our fashion course head, who also lectures/heads fashion management) was saying how this year’s FM students makes the “dream team”, with impressive grades to boot… woohoo… I’m praying we’ll all make an awesomest class of students!!! *claps hand close eyes bows head

thennn in cheeryyy mood I bought my new wallet and new diary for new year 2011 (yes v early but I have 20% member’s discount from kikki. k. :D) this is so lame but girls get v excited over things they buy, ok.

and met up with friends for dinnerrr movieeee and sushii during movie omgosh love. anyways im now on a lookout for people to hang with while im free but most if not all my lovely girlies are mad busy studying… yingling.. ming.. my sis… it’s not funny… so i hang with martin.. ian.. joshua.. dafril… mostly the boys that ORD! hahaha congrats man guys so happy for you all new found freedom. I am rambling ok. I think they don’t even read my blog. haha. ok byes!

Everyone knows who they are

Marquez looked troubled. “I’m not always sure. Yeah, I know who I am, like you said, but everyone knows who they are.”

“No, they don’t.” Summer said. “Lots of times I don’t. Lots of times I’m like a cloud changing shapes with the wind. It’s like people look at me and some think I look like a rabbit or a squirrel. and others think, no, that cloud looks like a map of Australia.”

– Extract from Beach Blonds by Katherine Applegate.

Crazy Ride

So I said I will update about the 4 months in Lasalle fashion foundation.

I am so tempted to tell all the stories that concerns this one bad person. But I will not. It’s way to bitchy for me to do that, and I don’t want to stoop to that level. I want to move on. Far far away from that person and forever more. Don’t ever want to be involved in that person’s life. Thank God I am not going to fashion design.

In this 4 months, I’ve made friends and found out that friends lie and betray me because of some misunderstandings they don’t resolve with me, despite all the times I’ve helped them with their schoolwork. In fact one misunderstanding occurred because I helped.

I found out that friend will hurt friends to further their own agendas and more despicably, use other to ruin others. And one willingly does so, while ostracizing people who kindly discourage them to do so. *Amazed* That one person is in absolute denial…

But I thank God, through it all, I may have been burned, but not killed. And I have found REAL friends that will tell me the damn truth instead of lying to me. And friends who CARE for me and will HELP me. 😀 😀 😀

God will be my avenger although I am obviously not gonna seek revenge or wish ill upon evil people. But the way they choose to lead their lives, they will do so to their ruin. Or more mean and evil people will ruin them, not kidding.

I HAVE become stronger and wiser. I am definitely much more freaking aware of what things are happening and definitely not going to be busybody and be involved in any drama whatsoever againnnnn. YAY!!!

Of course, through this all, I know people are not perfect, we are flawed and we make mistakes BUT innocent mistakes are NOT THE SAME with schemes. Or manipulation or intentional sowing of discord and ruining people’s life. Eyes can tell and humans can discern. Such people should be cautioned, you’ll be burned.

I am definitely amazed and amused that some people live such sad lives of toying with other people’ lives, who gain such thrill out dirty ploys. They should… get a life. And my parents are wise, they tell me to do nothing with such people with them except to pray for them.

Drama aside, everyone else in my class have been nothing short of lovely. 😉 I am happy and proud to be a class rep of such an outstanding class!

Lastly, the truth will be revealed… I have no need to explain myself. Those who need lies to cover themselves or choose to avoid people will need to do so their whole lives.

Last Leg

It’s the last leg of race to the finish!

Last presentation for Fashion Management tmr! I pray everything will go smoothly.

When it’s over, I will find time to sit down and review my life in Lasalle for the past 4 months in Fashion foundation. It’s been a wild ride, one beyond my imagination and what I thought I signed up for. I’ve been warned, but I never knew so many things would happen. And how unprepared I was.

So there, a little teaser for the next post.

Meanwhile I will be away doing my ppt slides!

Ciao!

Btw I sooooo want to go for a holiday…. somewhere with a beach… or a lot of malls… to play and shop.

I want to shop for new stuff. Hahaha.

The Bird in the Rain

The bird in the rain
Is trudging along
Her wings laden with rain-drops
Heavy from the journey’s flight

Against the beating rain
The strong winds
The bird in its flight

Weary, exhausted
Her wings torn and tattered
From the bushes’ thorns

The bird falters

and falls

With broken wings, she tries to fly again
Wavering, uncertain in the midst of gloomy skies

The bird in the rain
Yearns to return home to a green nest
For her broken wings to be restored.

In Bits & Pieces

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Anyhoo, stayed overnight in school to complete textile printing. It was fun with the mates! Think we’ll be doing this a lot in the next few days.

I am totally paying back all the sleep-full nights I had for last month’s weekend. I will need to forgo sleep for the next 1 week. Haha. Well, too many things happening in the last 1-2 months and it has resulting in this, no point crying for spilt milk, just move on, just do it! 🙂

Had the worst nightmare ever about Sophie, Serene and Caleb, thank God it’s not for real. I always dream about Serene, seriously! Haha.

A Short Break

In the midst of working on my Management Report, yes, 5am in the morning. Haha. Taking a short break now, with a cup of milo, one of my favourite comfort drink! ^^

I just wanted to come and post that I am so thankful for Sharinces, YangFei and Desmond in my class. I have not  been feeling well since last weekend and I feel the care and concern from them especially! ^^ I really enjoyed dinner with them.

I have not posted this before, but one of the things that have been affecting me is how scary the world, some people in this world can be. I know humans are flawed, nobody’s perfect but being brought up in a sheltered, christian community has really really shielded me from the harsh reality of life so much so that when the truth surfaces, I am shattered. I am currently recovering from the shock of this revelation. I realize how really naive and innocent I am, I really do see the world in rose-tinted glass. Maybe I don’t anymore, maybe I will. But a truth that I am reminding myself, continually, is that no matter how flawed humans are, God remains the same, He never changes!

The stars will not align

I look at the skies for direction. A bright shining star captures my attention, even though I know it is not the one that will lead me to my destination. The star that will lead me there is shrouded, not by any darks clouds or the crown of a roadside tree, but by my own tinted eyes. I perceive the other stars shining brighter, better, even though deep inside, I know it is not the case. The stars are diametrically opposed. Not that they refuse to align. They will not, no one’s will can do so. Eventually, I will find my way, amidst the questions and the doubts. I refuse to let myself follow what is wrong. But the deviant in me craves for the thrill of it. To enjoy the journey, even if it means living in the shadows of the star.

Reebonz Bag; Spring Outfits!

Hi! Reebonz is having a blogging contest and this is my post for the contest. 🙂

Spring is coming and here’s a lovely bag that you’d want to carry for Spring!

Balenciaga Giant Chic Box Bag

Spring is a wonderful time and here are 3 outfit sets I’ve created to go with the bag!

 


Balenciaga Giant Chic Box Bag, Burberry Dress, Alexander McQueen Blazer, Mulberry Boots, Max and Chloe Necklace


Balenciaga Giant Chic Box Bag, Valentino Dress and Brooch, Christian Louboutin Pumps, Tarina Tarantino Headband


Balenciaga Giant Chic Box Bag, Lanvin Gown, Burberry Jacket, Balmain Shoes, Roberto Cavalli Necklace and Bracelet

May you have a wonderful Spring ahead! 🙂

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