Pissed.

I don’t spend more than what I have and I save. Don’t make assumptions like I’m overspending and that hanging out with rich friends is bringing me astray. Have the basic courtesy to talk to me and not make an ass out of you and me. You may not earn a lot and I don’t remember asking for anything big ticketed (except for $3000 to Italy for a school art trip). And I am always careful to make my requests known politely and I never demand that they be granted. I am always thinking of what I jobs I can do to earn my own money and buy things I want instead of asking you for money. Shouldn’t you be pleased with that? No, you had to think that maybe hanging out with a rich friend is leading me astray and making me have a wild fantasy about life and spending money like water. I’m sorry to inform you but just like you, I work and I know how hard it is to earn money and I sure as hell don’t have wild fantasies of life. Other than the taxi fares I pay for to go to work in the morning when I am running late (which is super far away and during peak hour, fml), there is nothing else major and that can be considered a “luxury” that I spend on. Which eye of yours sees me spending and on what items? Maybe the worse part of this whole fiasco is that I only know what you said after hearing about it from my sister’s mouth who ALSO thinks like you do and has no right to lecture me without getting the facts right. And that I am retarded-ly typing these out on my blog to rant without you ever getting to know of it. At least not now cause I am way too upset, too hurt and too sad and sure to flare up and cry like no one’s business if I were to face you in the hall right now. Maybe I’m feeling all these because I just don’t measure up to your other two daughters. One was on scholarship and often refused money you offered. The other is on scholarship and is doing so well that she’s paid generously on internship. I’m sorry I’m not as good as them two. I’m sorry If I am asking for too much sometimes. Sometimes I feel it, that I’m a disappointment and maybe it would have been a wiser choice if you had decided to abort me 21 years back. I know I can be ungrateful and rude and a disappointment. I may not be making a big effort to be a sensible child but you sure aren’t making it any easier for me either.

Travel Post: I <3 Shenzhen!

This is a long overdue post because uploading the massive amount of photos just puts me off. 😛

I had tonsss of fun in Shenzhen, one of the happiest moments in my life. Traveling is always so much fun, just relaxing and enjoying life. 😉

It was a very eventful trip and one that God blessed me richly with. Firstly many thanks to Bini for inviting me to Shenzhen, offering to bring me around and just hang with me and play host! Her family was most hospitable in treating me to spa treatment, massage and buffet! Secondly I was very blessed to coincidentally travel towards Shenzhen with American fashion designers for Timo Weiland, Timo and Alan whom I met at Blueprint earlier. It was good to be traveling with them, into a foreign place for the first time! 🙂

And then as you can see from the photo slideshow above, it was really 5 days worth of fun shopping, eating, enjoying. What more can a girl ask for in a holiday?!

We discovered that we make great travel buddies and that we’d like to go to Hainan Island beaches next year! We talked about how if I’ll have a boyfriend by then, we can double date on a travel trip. 😛

xx

Book Recommendation: God Shaped Hole by Tiffanie Debartolo

Trivia before I commence the post: The title was one of the reasons why I picked up the book because I wanted to know what a love story about a God Shaped Hole will unravel.

God Shaped Hole by Tiffanie Debartolo is a mainly a love story about Beatrice “Trixie” Jordan and Jacob Grace, written in Beatrice’s  perspective. It seems like a typical romance story at first glance but upon further reading, one will discover it is anything but typical.

The love story starts fast and furious via an interesting encounter when Beatrice responds to an ad that says, “If your Intentions are Pure, I’m seeking a Friend for the End of the World”.

What starts out as a trial for both individuals blossoms quickly into a beautiful and realistically portrayed romance; entailing the quirky, creative couple’s (Beatrice’s a jewellery designer and Jacob’s a writer) idiosyncrasies and behavior at family and friends gatherings.

Readers will discover the irony upon reading that both main leads acknowledges a God shaped hole within them and all men but does not acknowledge the power of the One.

The story is written in a vivid and arresting manner, that perhaps comes with author Debartolo’s screen-writing experiences. I can imagine the story being translated into an indie film (one that I’d definitely watch and cry.)

The very poignant ending left me with tears in my eyes and is likely to leave one reflecting upon certain helpless moments in life when you know that something is about to happen but there is nothing you can do. I cannot specifically remember anything like that in my life but it impacted me and left me feeling pretty emotional.

I’d recommend this book for its realistically written characters that I’ve come to adore and for its ability to make you feel for them as they experience sadness and joy.

I borrowed the book from the Bedok Public Library Branch. You may check out or purchase the book here (Amazon).

Do comment if this recommendation makes you interested to read the book. Also I’m looking for good books to read, do recommend me if you have any! You may also drop suggestions for my future book reviews. 🙂

Book Review: Norwegian Wood by Haruki Murakami

Hi guys! This is my first book review blog post, hope you’ll like it. I decided to write book reviews because it’s a good way to summarize the story as well as introduce to you books that I read. Do drop me book recommendations under comments! 🙂

Norwegian Wood by Haruki Murakami is a story written in the male protagonist, Toru’s perspective in post war Japan about how he deals with loss and love.

Norwegian Wood is definitely not just another predictable romance story. Written in the perspective of the male protaganist, it’s likely a book that boys can appreciate better than girls. I find the male perspective to be interesting, to see the world through a male’s eyes. Girls might appreciate the book as it provides a peek into the minds of boys.

The story is sensual and provocative. Many times I find myself reading through salacious scenes on the train, looking up to check that people are not reading what I’m reading. The sensual scenes are not written like those run-of-the-mill B-grade novels that is filled with tawdry descriptions but rather it is written with literary flair, in an innocent and beautiful light.

I like that the book touches on issues on death, sickness, mental illness as the main themes of the story. Issues that are very intimate, personal and real and rarely the core themes of a romance story. Perhaps that is why this book creates an impact all around the world from decades ago till today.

The story is very much anchored in post modern mentality where there is no judgement on the characters, no matter what actions they take. No matter the severity of the action, it is treated in a matter-of-fact manner, like just a phase of life. The story doesn’t delve into the reasons for Toru’s best friend, Kizuki’s death. In fact the reason is unknown. Perhaps it’s due to Kizuki’s girlfriend, Naoko’s illness but perhaps Naoko’s illness is perpetuated by Kizuki’s death. Neither does the story justify or makes judgement on Toru and his friend, Nagasawa’s philandering ways.

The story is believable in all points except for Naoko’s “retreat” somewhere far out in the countryside. Perhaps the physical retreat, an “asylum” of sorts for the people is meant to be a metaphor of mental escapism for burdened and worn out city-dwellers. Maybe it’s something that really exists in the Japanese culture but it definitely comes across as queer and fantastical, which does not fit well with the story.

Set in a post-war Japan, the entangled romance and friendships between characters are intertwined with patriotic or pseudo-patriotic protests in Toru’s college. The story conveys the very sense of loss, helplessness and acceptance of tragedies experienced by Japanese in the post-war era.

The book is not a favourite for me but it’s definitely a good book for anyone looking for something light to read. It would definitely appeal to anyone who has interest in the Japanese culture. 🙂

ClubCouture’s Summer Sale! :)

If you’ve been following me on twitter, you’d know by now that Club Couture recently sponsored me a few dresses to feature on my blog! Unfortunately with internship and my mother’s recent admission to hospital, I haven’t had time to schedule a photo shoot! But no worries, I’m on it and I can’t wait to post pictures of them soon! 🙂

So, Club Couture is having this AWESOME Summer Sale going right on their website that’s hard to miss and I’d like YOU to enjoy it!!! They are also offering free registered delivery on all orders – no minimum spend required! Anddd they ship worldwide! How awesome is that! Btw they did not ask me to write this post, I just wanted to share with ya’ll a selection of lovely dresses absolutely fitting to have fun, date and fall in love with this summer! 😉

Floral Chiffon Maxi Original $68, Special Price $39.99

I loveee maxi dresses but unfortunately for me, I am not blessed in the height department and so I very much prefer to keep to short,  knee length and above dresses. But you know, we always want what we can’t have so I picked out quite a bit of maxi dresses in this post. 😛

Summer Long Necklace $29

It’s summer and you have this necklace to prove it! With a rose crafted in ribbons and leaves signifying blooms in summer, what’s not to love? You could pair it with the Floral Chiffon Maxi as above. 😉

Khaki Tank Dress Original Price $36, Special Price $29.99

I am totally digging this khaki green coloured tank dress! Doesn’t it give off such a sense of adventure? I can totally imagine visiting the pyramids of Giza in Egypt, or riding an open top jeep into a Safari in this dress! Yet when you pair this lovely dress with pearl necklace and black heels as seen above, it channels an urban-girl-with-an-adventurous-spirit vibe! 🙂

Julianne Khaki Parka $79

For a solution to looking cool and feeling warm in the summer rain, bring on the parka! Don’t be afraid to pair it with a girly dress underneath it, the quirky mix is in trend right now!

Floral Maxi Dress Original Price $68, Special Price $29.99

In my opinion, this dress with its blue, red and yellow florals gives off a mexican vibe which is always good for a colourful summer! Ideal for a day at the beach or a walk in the garden! Remember to bring that lomo to capture all the memories of the day! 🙂

Strapless Chiffon Dress in red $68

For a date you’d like to impress, consider this red hot dress that’s sure to blow the mind of any guy who sees you in it. 😛

Anddd if you’re reading this AFTER 13 June, no fear! Just quote offer code CCBLOG15 upon checkout and you’d receive a 15% discount for being my awesome reader! 🙂

Xx

Thank God for good health! :)

My mother is not having a case of a tumour re-growth but rather a hormonal imbalance that’s been causing her lethargy and headaches! So thank God! 😀

It’s really a case of doctor’s mis-communication because the hormonal doctor wanted to wait and consult the brain tumour doctor before administering medicine but the brain tumour doctor was like, no it’s ok, the hormonal doc can go ahead it’s got nothing to do with brain tumour and in the end no medicine was given for my mother’s condition and hence she experienced headaches, vomiting and admission to A&E… Stupid doctors.

But we’re superrr glad she’s ok now after having the right dosage of hormonal medicine as well as sodium (which she was lacking but to reasons unknown) she’s recovering well! 😀

THANK GOD for His providence!!!

My mum is currently in a C-class, 7 beds ward. On her right is an Indian lady who recently had her foot or a part of her foot amputated due to gangrene caused by diabetes. She was mostly half asleep during my hour plus long visit and was moaning in pain. I felt really bad for her to be suffering so much physically.

On my mum’s left is a Malay lady whom I’m not sure what illness she’s suffering but she seemed quite bored as she was playing with a gadget that seemed like an I-touch and was playing oldies like “Sunshine in the rain” and “All by myself”. She didn’t have any visitors while we were there during visiting hours and she even had a plastic bowl of chips which I found quite amusing.

Opposite to the Malay lady was a Chinese lady whom I overhead the nurse telling her son to advise and motivate the mother to stand and walk around as lying in bed all day does not improve the condition and in fact causes a whole lot of other problems like constipation and lack of blood circulation.

A trip to the hospital is always a sobering one. After my mum’s two brain tumour operations and my sister’s several also brain tumour and shunt operations, my family is quite familiar to hospital visits. But seeing people suffering physically is always a good reminder to be thankful for our abled bodies and good health that God blesses us with.

🙂

Hopefully third time’s the charm

It seems that my mum’s brain tumour has acted up once again. 4 years back she had her 1st operation to remove the tumour, another one 2 years back and now it seems the never-ending tumour is back to haunt her and my family once again.

When her headaches came back about 3 weeks ago (maybe even more I didn’t keep a close record) with a renewed intensity, my first reaction was for her to visit her brain tumour specialist doctor for an update on her situation.

Her appointment came on the Thursday that just passed and the doctor was reluctant to give her immediate attention and operation because he didn’t want to expose her to another operation at her age unless absolutely necessary. He slotted her another MRI this Saturday willing to put my Mother through her prolonged misery.

Alas, my mother’s brain acted up and she started to vomit this morning at 6am and my dad and my sister accompanied her to the hospital at 9.30am (while I was soundly asleep). I woke at 11am thinking my family went about their Saturday rountine as usual, my parents out checking wet markets and hawker centres while my sister at her church music rehearsal. Only to receive a call by my mum at 12.45pm that she’s in hospital.

We’re not alarmed. I can only say that a situation like this, a third time round mostly just makes us jaded. Like, you know, the re-growth of the tumour, a trip to the hospital, another operation is just a part of life. But of course it disturbs us, it causes anxiety and worry. I go to sleep praying to God for my mother’s good health and worrying that I’d lose my mother before I turn 21.

Fortunately, led by my father’s example, we entrust our mum into God’s hand and trust that He’ll bring her through again. When I asked my dad over lunch if he was worried about mum’s situation, he calmly said no because he entrusted her to God’s hand and that although her tumour’s re-growth is not something he can control, he told God to do what us humans and doctors cannot do, to stop it from re-growing.

I pity my mother for a situation like hers, it makes her suffer for weeks but the doctor won’t operation and relieve her of her misery because it’s not serious enough. Are we suppose to wait till it becomes serious then we solve the problem? Sigh. Hopefully third time’s the charm, after a third successful operation and the tumour never grows again.

Sponsored Review: Ginvera Green Tea Aqua Whitening Cream (with Oil Control) and Nude Cover BB Cream SPF30/PA++!

About 1 week ago, The Sample Store emailed me asking if I was interested to take up an invitation to feature Ginvera‘s products. I readily agreed and I received two beautiful products in my mail yesterday! 🙂
Ladies & Gentlemen, my cute teddy bear presents to you Ginvera’s Green Tea Aqua Whitening Cream (with Oil Control) & Green Tea Nude Cover BB Cream in their pretty packaging!

I am quite excited as it’s my first beauty product review on my blog. I am not an expert but here are the product information followed by my views! 🙂

Starting off with  Ginvera’s Green Tea Aqua Whitening Cream (with Oil Control):
Enriched with Green Tea Essence, Thanaka Extracts and Biogel, Ginvera Green Tea Aqua Whitening Cream provides the benefits of skin whitening, UV protection, oil control, lightening of spots and acne scars and prevents the formation of pimples. Its deep moisturizing and oil control effects help to effectively hydrate and clarify the skin for natural and radiant glow!

The Ginvera’s Green Tea Aqua Whitening Cream (with Oil Control)‘s cream may seem to be quite thick but it is light and definitely not sticky to the touch. When applied evenly on the skin, it leaves the skin moisturized and fairer than before.

The photo above shows my face with only Ginvera’s Green Tea Aqua Whitening Cream (with Oil Control) and nothing else. The cream works well in covering minor pimple and acne scars as it whitens and hydrates the skin to give a healthy glow. On days when you want to let your skin breath and skip the foundation powder, this is a cream you can apply and still look and feel confident in.

Up next, we have  Ginvera Green Tea Nude Cover BB Cream:
Enriched with premium Green Tea, Ginseng, Chinese Angelica and Hyaluronic Acid, Green Tea Nude Cover BB Cream provides the benefits of blemish free concealing, sun block effects, whitening, moisturizing and reduction of lines, providing a long lasting smooth and ultra light feel to nourish and perfect your skin. 

Ginvera Green Tea Nude Cover BB Cream is just the right mix, neither too thick which impedes the application process nor too thin that it does not conceal blemishes. However the colour of the cream is too dark for my skin and liking.

This photo shows the effect and coverage that both Ginvera Green Tea Aqua Whitening Cream (with Oil Control) and Nude Cover BB Cream provides. I only applied a thin layer of BB cream as I usually do and it marginally conceals my pimple scars and blemishes. With another coat it will show better coverage however I find that it will be too dark for my skin tone.

This photo includes a extra coat of my usual powder foundation, eye, cheeks and lips make-up. 😉

In conclusion, Ginvera Green Tea Aqua Whitening Cream (with Oil Control) is definitely worth a buy and try at only $16.90 for a 40g tube. After a full day’s use, I found that the cream did control my usually oily T-zone and my skin was still looking hydrated when it usually doesn’t. I am likely to replace my current moisturizing cream with this as it is more effective.

However I won’t say the same for the Ginvera Green Tea Nude Cover BB cream as I have tried and used other brands’ BB cream which provides equal coverage and at a more suitable colour. However with ingredients like premium Green Tea, Ginseng, Chinese Angelica and Hyaluronic Acid, the BB cream sounds a lot more natural and likely to maintain the original balance of the skin than the slew of man-made chemicals and ingredients found in the other brands. So if Ginvera were to introduce the same cream with a lighter tone I may reconsider to pick it up for long term usage. However if you have a skin tone that suits the Green Tea BB Cream just right, you can give it a shot!

How to know if the products will suit you?! Ginvera is giving free samples for both Ginvera Green Tea Aqua Whitening Cream (with Oil Control) and Nude Cover BB Cream so grab yours before 8th June, which is when the offer runs out!

Redeem your FREE Ginvera Aqua Whitening Cream (with Oil Control) &  GREEN TEA NUDE COVER BB CREAM SPF30/PA++ samples here: http://www.facebook.com/ginvera.sg?sk=app_213564948660624 or http://www.facebook.com/ginvera.sg!

Do spread the news too! 😉